My pile of shame taunts me.
“Why aren’t you painting me?”, I heard in my minds eye as I walk past my paint station. “You should be working on printing out all these 3D Kickstarters you have in queue instead of playing Hearthstone”, my 3D printer yells at me from across the house. I’ve been needing to do some dialing in on it for a bit, and for whatever reason, I haven’t had the motivation to do so. So it’s sat there, dormant for going on 4 days now. I know I should be doing those things, but right now, I just don’t wanna. And you know what, I’m learning that it’s completely okay.
My cross to bear in being a jack of all trades nerd is that sometimes I feel spread too thin across so many different hobby areas. Sometimes I wonder how much simpler it would be if I were just in to 1 or 2 hobbies, and could laser like focus on those endeavors instead of hopping back and forth between half a dozen or more interests. I see friends and other people I know and I oftentimes wish I were more deeply versed in certain things like they are. But then I say to myself.
“HEY! SNAP OUT OF IT!”
Having so many interests can be a good thing. In fact, I would argue that having such a diversified portfolio of geek hobbies is a positive.
And perhaps, being stuck in a rut isn’t a thing at all.
Stay with me here. We’ve heard the expression countless times. It’s used to describe being in “lul” or “valley” when it comes to things we need to check off our list (whether professional or personal). And we’ve oftentimes used the term “stuck in a rut” as a pejorative. But what if, being stuck in a rut really should mean, “I’m doing something else right now. The thing that at any given point is just as meaningful as that other thing that I feel like I’m neglecting.”
And I think that’s the key. Just because I’m not tackling my pile or shame or those 3D projects, doesn’t mean I’m not doing something else just as important to me. We are our harshest critic and we can be toughest on ourselves. So you know what? Don’t beat yourself up about those projects you’re still lingering on. You’ll get there. Like any creative endeavor, sometimes you need to let the inspiration come to you, instead of forcing square pegs into round holes.
So on a Sunday afternoon, when I’ve got a day full of things I should be doing, I’m going to let my inner voice guide me and let it come to me as it may. I have plenty of things to focus on, and if it’s one of those things that have been sitting for a while, untouched, great. And if not, that’s okay too. I’m going to work at not comparing myself to others when it comes to output levels and timelines. Me going at my pace is exactly where I need to be.
So who knows, maybe I’ll pull up the chair at my paint station and get to work on the pile-o-shame, or maybe I’ll work on getting the 3D printer dialed-in. Or perhaps I’ll keep reading Andy Weir’s latest book. I do have several board games I was planning on sorting and running through. Or ya know, I still need to run through that copy of Dungeoneers I picked up a few weeks ago.
Or maybe I’ll just take a nap first.
As always, leave a comment with your thoughts. Until next time, LLAP!